Week 5 - Day 32

11:39 am

Hey Everyone. Today so far, has been quite the day. I woke up feeling tired and blah. And when that happens, I do NOT want to hike. I was just not in the mood. In fact, I almost didn't hike. I contemplated staying in the gym and then thought, that's no fun. I decided to hike but wasn't in the mood. When Paige gets up to explain the hike, she says, "it's a very challenging hike". Well, mentally, that just got me down and i thought, i can't do this. i literally just didn't have it in me. Clare was doing 101 today so I jumped over there with her. Well, my good ol buddy Deb (the hiking guide) runs over, grabs my arm and says "absolutely not you are NOT doing 101. you are going with us" i'm like, noooooooo. she literally dragged me out the door with her arm through mine and forced me to do intermediate which is Volcano. I have heard horror stories about Volcano. I'm just not mentally prepared for this. It was the most difficult hike I have ever did in my entire life. Physically, emotionally, mentally. It was ridiculous. I stumbled in a cactus and got it stuck in my big toe. So my foot was sore for most of the hike. Then, towards the end, I completely wiped out and fell. I rolled my ankle so now I have a sore ankle. When I fell, I was soooo tired and emotional, I started crying. Not from the pain but from everything building up. It was the first hike where I literally did not think I was going to make it. I know I say all the time on the hike, "oh i'm dying.. or oh i'm so tired" but this was completely different. I was completely spent. By the end of the hike, I had absolutely nothing left. I got back to the van I checked my calories. I burned 1750 calories. That is the most I have ever burned on a hike. That is literally half a pound which is amazing. When I got back to the van, I almost started crying again when I told Deb about my calories. Its just really emotional when you complete something so amazing and yet, feel so exhausted. We got back to FR and all my friends were hanging out in the lobby. They all heard about the cactus and were checking on me which was really sweet!!! Danae came up and talked to us and she heard about the cactus and was checking on me!!! I was thinking, Man, News travels fast in this place! I was talking about how I fell and it seems like everyone fell today! Susan and Jeanette both fell 2x! So I felt better about that. I talked to John (in reservations) and I get a new roommate on Sunday which sucks. I don't want a roommate. UGH! Now i'm laying down and i'm going to take a nap before lunch. I'm EXHAUSTED!